I Have an Anonymous!

Today I was lucky enough to have my first "anonymous" comment.
Okay this is funny to me because people have to wright these little hateful messages to people and don't have balls to post their name.

Now first of all this person must not be very bright because it is a loan. Now I don't know if they know what a loan is, but it is something that people pay back.

I have NEVER gotten a grant from the government.
I have only had loans and my dad pays the rest of my tuition that is not covered.

Second of all, I have always paid taxes. Not only have I not gotten this money back for anything such as grants, but I also most likely never will. So if I cant afford college I for damn sure will take out a grant.

Now, if there are any viewers who think I am "sick", I suggest you don't read my blog.
This person must not know me very well either. I, unlike them, would never leave a mean message calling someone "sick".

Leave the judging to God.

Summer Plans

Some how I always find a way to get what I want.
Looking ahead at this summer I started to realize I am going to be a very lonely person. No school, no work and no cable along with a big belly limiting my activities. I started looking into classes for the summer to get some out of the way before baby comes but to take a couple classes at ASU isn't cheap. I told myself I will not ask dad for money so I started asking financial aid instead and I have finally been approved. Yay! I am so excited. Now I have to think of which ones to take. These are the perks I speak of that come along with being a single pregnant girl. Especially a college student.

Six Months Down, Three to go

Wow time is flying by.

We had our 6 month check up today.
It really freaked me out as we were leaving and the scheduler asked if we would like to schedule our upcoming appointments all the way out. Are we really that close the the due date??

Today was the glucose appointment which was no fun.Well I say no fun, but everything with Dave is fun because he entertains me. I had to drink a sugar cocktail which really hurt my esophagus going down. Ever since having esophagitis certain things really hurt, such as carbonated beverages. We then waited around for an hour so I could get poked by the vampire lady who took all my blood. It was also that time to get my Rh shot, since I am Rh-. It went right in my booty and burned real bad.

As the weeks pass by we keep getting more and more excited for the arrival of our sweet little boy. I now think of him more as my son than the little baby inside me. He's already Daddy's little buddy. I am so lucky to have Dave through all of this. He is so caring and helps out with everything. He doesn't let me do laundry or clean the tub or carry many grocery bags. He even caries around my purse sometimes. There's the saying women become mothers when they get pregnant and men become fathers once they see their child for the first time but that's not the case here. He is always talking to the baby, reading him stories at night (and sings to him twinkle twinkle) and rubs my belly. Most mornings I wake up with Dave holding my belly. The bond between them melts my heart. He is always telling me things he cant wait to do with the baby and teach him.

I keep wondering what kind a person my son will be and what type of parents we will.
Luckily we share a lot of the same views and want the same things. One of our biggest concerns is we want him to be respectful- there aren't enough of those kids anymore. We both know it is now our duty in life to raise this child to be a good person. We are both calm happy people which gives me hope that he will be the same.

It's funny how everyone who has children likes to tell you what it's like to be a parent. Most people try to scare me. And some actually do by watching them interact with their children. I realize once this child is out our entire lives are going to change and it will be tough, but I also know that it's really what you make out of it. I can spend my days stressing about little things and being tired and weak but that is not what I want out of life or for my family. And if you ever see me acting weak, I give you permission to punch me in the face.

I know it will be fine because I have a great partner and God leading our lives.

Weekend Fun

I so needed a weekend.

I worked six days straight last week so once this beautiful Sunday finally rolled around I woke up with joy. Wahooo. You don't realize how much of a toll pregnancy takes on your body until you don't have a chance to rest and simple daily tasks you did before are much harder. I am coming upon tasks I can't do so easily anymore- like get on the floor and squeeze between racks. By the end of these working days I am so tired Icollapse on the bed with my aching swollen feet propped up until Dave comes home from work- and usually massages them.

I have also been busy with school preparing for finals so I havn't gotten much done around the apartment. Luckily I have a wonderful man that steps in to cook and clean for me even though he's tired and had a long day as well. Oh and massages my feet (thank you sweetie). I have one more day of working at the store. I am going to be so sad to come back to a life of relaxing all day. I love working and staying busy. There is nothing like feeling accomplished by the end of the day. I would love to have a job but I lost mine in late October and with the morning sickness I was unwilling to get a job and now it's just too hard to find one.

Last night Dave took me out on a date to the Cheescake Factory.
It was soo special and not to mention delicious. We looked around at our fellow hungry omnivores devouring their meals or waiting anxiously to and made up our own stories of them.

"They are on their first date"

"They aren't on their first date but they aren't dating. He takes her out for a 'good time' but has another girl he's dating"

You can tell these things by observing. I am very good at abserving people.

Today we went to Tempe Market Place and bopped around. We then came home around noon and hit the pool side. Pretty relaxed day. Just what I needed. Dave went to his friends studio they have been building to jam for awhile so I am here alone catching up on some blogging and getting my baby registry together and organized.

P.S. We have an appointment with the doctor on Tuesday morning so there will be a baby update.

P.S.S. Elliot is doing well. He moves all day and our little family is growing closer ever day.
I love it <3

Lola

We have internet again!

Yesterday I was running around going to an appointment, the pharmacy and the eye doc to pick up my new glasses before heading off to work. (I am working till Saturday). As I was waiting for my prescription to get filled I figured I would go say hi to Whitney across the street. I let myself in to find no Whitney, but an anxious Lola. Whitney and Josh got Lola before Christmas and she was sooo tiny and cute when they brought her home- except for the fact that she pee'd whenever and where ever she had to.

She was so happy to see me come in I couldn't just walk out and leave her once I didn't find Whitney I stayed with her for a few minutes. Look how much bigger she has gotten. She used to be smaller that my foot and now she attacks my feet when I walk, not even afraid of getting kicked and jumps on and off everything she can. This little girl isn't afraid of anything. She is just too cute.

Internet Withdraw

So our internet has been failing to work by our command.
I am starting to have withdraws. I wake up and don't know what to do with myself and go to bed unable to check the blogs I keep up on.

Anyway.. this is what I want Elliot's room to look like. Simple, organic, calm.
I found this on cookie magazine. There's already E's! How perfect.

Weekend Fun

This weekend I have been working on my research paper that is due on Tuesday. I have been dreading it but it's actually pretty fun. If I ever try to get my PhD this would be the perfect topic to do a doctoral dissertation on. I'm so in love with this Evangelist portrait of Luke. It is from the St. Augustine Gospels and one of the oldest illuminated manuscripts that survive today dating from the early 6th century. The images on the registers between columns depict scenes from the life of Christ.

Yummm. Kabobs.
My dad made these often when he lived here and I had this serious craving for them this weekend. Of course we had to cook cous cous with it because that's what dad does.

-Oh and Dad, throw on some mushrooms next time. It's delic.

Friday Dave had to take a driving test online. (Hah Hah)
He was sooo mad. You can tell by his expression. Our darn internet kept going out so we had to go the "The Bean" for the wi-fi. I worked on my paper of course, and we were there almost until 12am! It was a little crazy.

I actually worked this Saturday!
It was great. A previous manager/family friend/aunt (I don't really know what to call her because she's been around for so long she is like family) went out of town so I am filling in at her store this week. My aunt works there so I get to hang out with her all day. It's a pretty sweet deal.

Happy Friday

I don't know about you, but we love Friday's over here.

Today has been a crazy day for me. I began going to our favorite coffee shop Xtreme Bean (The Bean we like to call it) where I completed an online test for my Ritual Studies class (REL305-hardest class ever). I love going on weekday mornings because our friend works who only charges $2 for our drinks- and I get a medium soy white mocha so thats a sweet deal. I spent most of my time on ASU campus getting things done. I had an advisement appointment and figured I'd do other things while I was there like selling back books and talking to financial aid- one perk about being a "single" pregnant girl, you get lots of financial help. I got to spend the day with my bike :).

After finally returning home I figured I'd do my homework by the pool.
-Multi-tasking I like to call it.

I had to take a picture of myself, I thought it was so funny how it looks like I'm bottomless because of my belly. But I promise i am wearing a suite. I havn't really seen any pregnant women in bikini's but I'm still young and you ain't getting my in a one peice or tankini until I am at least a 35, and even then if my body is in good shape im stikin with the bikini. I like them on some younger women, it's just not my thing.

Happy Friday anyhow. Hopefully your weekend will be more exciting than mine. My big research paper for Medieval Art History is due Tuesday so that covers my weekend.

Belly Love

We took some pictures of the belly the other night.
It has been growing so much lately and I wanted to share it with everyone.

This is my view.

I am 24 weeks now and when I tell people they often say "you are so small".
I get it all the time, everyday. I don't know what they mean but ill take it as a compliment i guess.

I am so in love with my little baby and we get closer every day. He moves all the time and its fun for me to watch. Yesterday I was lounging back on the couch with my cell phone laying on my belly and my phone stared moving side to side. He had to of been shaking back and forth. It was so funny.

Denver Festivities #3

Today we went to my favorite coffee shop Stella's. I know i know, I should not be drinking caffeine but it is so hard not to. My baby moves around all day and all night. I don't think this little man ever sleeps and I think it might be because he's wired on coffee. I only drink 1 a day, but today we figured he might get addicted just like I am and have headaches when he's born from not having it, so I should probably stop. Id rather have headaches from no coffee today than headaches from a screaming baby tomorrow, if you catch my drift.

We drove around the city and then to Red Rocks Amphitheatre. Also, another cool thing for Dave to see, since he is a 'musician'. Ha. He started clicking away on his camera again taking pictures he's never going to look at I am sure. But I guess it's good to have them.

I was feeling soo sick today. I don't know what from, I am guessing the altitude cause it always messes me up. I felt like I had the worst menstral cramps and gas on top of it, but I had no menstral and no gas. I felt like barfing, especially going up the steep hills to the ampitheatre. I even wondered ... is this early labor?? But then I took 2 tylenols and a nap and woke up feeling fine.

You can tell in this picture I wasn't feeling to well. It captured the emotion perfectly.

Thank you sooo much mom and Scott for having us and providing so much food! And Scott, the coffee's were teriffic. Ill see you guys at the baby shower.

Denver Festivities #2

Saturday was a little crazy.
We decided to go get started on the baby registry at Babies r us and I almost had a panic attack. I suggest you pregnant women do not register there. It was way overwhelming and everything is over priced. We did it anyway. Then we left and went to Target and registered there too. It was way easier and I felt a lot better. We compared priced and everything is drastically different in price.

We then spent the day watching movies. It was awesome.

Sunday we decided we would get out and see what the city had to offer. Me and Dave hopped on the light rail near my moms house and headed down town to the mile high city. It was really fun.

We roamed the city and walked to the Denver Art Museum. Dave went crazy taking pictures. Most of the time I was walking way ahead of him, and talking to myself thinking he was there only to look back and see he been side tracked by a big building.

It sprinkled most of the time and was pretty cold, but that's what made it so fun. It was like an adventure.

The art museum had a psychedelic experience exhibit going on with all of the Fillmore concert posters from like the 60's and 70's. It was so cool and great for Dave to see. We ran into all sorts of older people talking about their LSD days and experiences that used the word "groovy".

I know it's a lot of pictures.
If you are ever in Denver, go see the art museum! It's awesome and has 7 stories. The architecture alone is enough to go see.

Denver Festivities

Holy cow we are back and I have been neglecting my blog.
I got to spend some good time with my mom brother and Scott (step dad) before the baby comes.

Millie was sooo happy to see me. She stuck by my side the entire time I was there. She tried to go to bed with us a couple nights but I returned her to the upstairs where my mom sleeps. Every morning I could hear her crying at the door. So every morning I let her in, which Dave didn't love so much because she licks a whole lot. And then she jumps under the covers and sleeps till we get up.

We left on Tuesday night and got back tonight, and I am so happy to be off the plane. Being pregnant and flying is not fun. I was so uncomfortable and every little thing the fellow passengers were doing was annoying me. But now I am home eating a yummy Amy's bowl listening to Andrew Bird while Dave washes our dirty laundry.

Friday we went to the Denver Zoo which I have been wanting to do for a while. They have the neatest animal. I didn't take pictures of them because I knew I wouldn't do anything with them. Dave took a ton and my mom has some neat ones on her blog http://jen-n-scott.blogspot.com/.

I have a lot to post so I while do them according to days.

Sleep.... During Pregnancy? Ha.

I understood I wouldn't be able to sleep with a baby but no one told me I wouldn't be able to sleep before the baby even comes. This is what they don't tell you...
You wake up all through out the night after it takes you forever to fall asleep from

• sweating
• uncomfortableness
  
• your belly feels like its stretching
• lower back pain
• foot pain (you can even feel your pulse in them)
• occasionally I feel like I cant breath
  
• you're stressed and have too many thoughts in your head
• you have to pee real bad and check just to make sure you haven't pee'd already
• the baby starts doing ballet in your tummy
• oh and wonderful leg cramps. those are my fav
  

I have not slept much these past few days. I stayed up tossing and turning all night and woke up sooo tired. I even stayed in bed till 10:30 this morning. I feel very lucky I don't have to work.

The baby starts going crazy around 5am every day. This morning I made Dave feel him and he said "it feels like he's mad". I don't understand what this little guy is doing. Id love to watch him.

Accomplishment

After yesterday I really needed to pick myself up.
So today I went to the eye doctor to get new glasses, went to the gym and sun bathed.
I tried out my baking skills, just like I said I would, and made these super good banana nut muffins. (I added chocolate chips because I am a bad girl). They are soooo so good! Finally I feel like I have accomplished something. It may only be muffins, but its a start. If you want the recipe just ask! I think I will bring some to my sister tomorrow.

I have busted out my sewing machine and the quilt I have been working on for a long long time. I hate to admit this but this was Dave's Christmas present in 2007, or was supposed to be at least. I am determined to finish it. I want to sew Elliot a quilt for his big birth day but I feel like I really need to finish this one first. I am working on attaching the back on (straight) but it's a tough job. I have redone it twice already. After that I only need to do a border and it will be complete!

Busy Bee's

Friday I met my siblings (since Sean is in town from Denver), Grandma, Great Grandma and Uncle Josh for some lunch at Nello's. Sean is going home tomorrow but I will see him on Thursday when I go to Denver. I broke my favorite sunglasses and didn't realize how much my new ones suck until after this picture.

On Saturday the weekend got real busy. Mostly for Dave. He had to go into work which sucked pretty bad for him. He was there almost all day so I went around to my favorite thrift shops looking for some treasures. I didn't find anything I was looking for, unfortunately. Feeling unfulfilled I decided to go to Babies r us and realized how much stuff I need for baby. I thought holy crap I'm gonna either a)need to get a job, or b) make more friends to invite to my baby shower- which by the way is going to be memorial day weekend, so don't make any plans.

I went home after my adventure to an empty apartment so I decided to clean the entire thing. I usually bust out the bleach once a week (I know, its prob not good for the baby, but vomiting for 3 months wasn't good for mommy so whatever). Once he finally got home we went to visit his grandparents. It was lovely.

I am trying to practice my baking skills so I got everything one needs to bake. Following instructions and measurements is not my thing, which is why I'm a lot better at cooking. My first task, making banana nut muffins this week from scratch. Every night I need some sweets. Last week we even drove to baskin robins at 9:30 for some ice cream and I decided that's not good for our wallets or my waste line (which is non existent at this time anyway). Feeling guilty I got strawberries and pears and dipped them in a chocolate sauce I made. Much better than ice cream.

Every week I go to my sisters house to pick up my super sweet bike Dave got me before this school year started and ride to school. (I think I have the coolest bike on campus. It looks like a creamsicle). Also every week, I notice my bike betting lower and lower. I begin to think, either I am getting fatter or my tires are getting lower. Well come to find out last Tuesday, they are flat. I tried to pump them but it was unsuccessful. Why do they make this task so difficult?? Today I got Dave to come over with me and pump them. It's not everyday you see a pregnant lady riding a bike, right?

It has also been an emotional day. I hate these days, they make me feel like looser. Dave occasionally has a comment like "oh all the guys have warned me about this. They all say the women get all crazy when they are pregnant". This really pisses me off. What the heck do they know. I want to go smack them in the face and ask them what the heck they have to do. I think it's real funny how they think hormones are some made up thing we use as excuses. I'd love for them to try to be us for a day. Uhg! I have a lot more to say about this, it'll be another post, another day.

Anyways, I am making my moms green chili enchiladas for dinner which at BOMB but the meat is taking forever because I decided to take them a step further and slow cook the meat in green chili sauce and it's just not reaching the tenderness I desire. Another thing that made me feel like a looser. I then started to cry and then flipped off the pot and said "F you meat!". I think I should just go to bed...

Studio for Rent

We are trying to rent out the studio I was living in when I moved in with Dave.
It is in a hip Tempe neighborhood on Rural and Broadway and is in walking distance to ASU. The house is very neat and different from the rest, and currently occupied by my sister and her husband, but you wouldn't see them anyway. The room has a separate entrance, a kitchenette, bathroom and a big long closet. It is perfect for a student.

This is the only picture I have of the room.
If you want any information on it email me chlsmarsh@yahoo.com.
It's a great deal.